Under Appreciated

Seriously? Let's say this is the scenario... 50% of the population like this but the other 50% don't like this and that.

It's too bright could you change the color of this sub section? Could you make me a bunch of graphics? Could you change the icon of this and that here and here? I can't read this I can't read that. I hate this and that! Let me whine whine whine more more more!

It has to be a fucking JOKE as to how childish even adults can act on the simplest things. You can't read this part of a forum that I worked so hard to code and crap for you people then why don't you get some damn glasses. I made it this color and that color to make it look BAD ASS? I could just tear down the whole thing. As for those graphics... Damn I hate doing graphics now it's so damn boring! There's these people who are requesting I do some for them... But because I don't have much of a passion for it I don't want to give them crap work I rather give them quality than crap in all honesty. I work hard and put many hours into making my graphics the least you could do is use em and I'd greatly appreciate that even.

SORRY!!!

For sounding like such a god damn fucking BITCH! But I grew up with tough love and I admit it has made me a better person. Sure I appear mean and all that but I do happen to have a leveled head on my shoulders today. I think through my actions and even though my mom can be damn critical with her words I admit I have inherited those traits as well. But it's TOUGH LOVE. Learn from it. Deal with it. Hate me. I don't care. I don't care if people hate me because I give my true opinion on how to make things better because I myself know damn ass straight that whatever I say even if I sound harsh with words, it's right regardless. 

 Even if there's like 50% of people who aren't pleased with my work why should I go off and try pleasing them? What about the 50% of people who weren't even complaining? What if they get upset? So... Whoever is upset and crying should I run and tend to their wounds when they're grown ass people who can either suck it up and deal with the situation or run to another and cry about their situation. Not everyone is gonna get what they want, that's life. It's full of imperfections and imbalances but everyone's still alive. It's not the end of world. So why act like your world is ending if I can't fix one teeny tiny thing? 

I bet if the best thing in the world to be were to leave my life right now I wouldn't realize how great it was until it was gone. My parents for instance. I don't show them enough love and compassion and appreciation for what they do. I know I wouldn't be the person I am today without them. I love them very much and appreciate all the hard work they have done to give me the great life I have before me now. I just don't tell them I love them enough. But when I do tell them I love them and appreciate them, I'm sure they don't believe it because it sounds and feels all awkward. As awkward it would be they would believe my love and appreciation for them. 

But for people who are practically adults to come running to me with their petty crybaby shit, I don't need it. Take everything I say as an insult and get ass hurt for all I care but I say it with all the utmost love and respect for you. Tough love does the soul good. 

I was never a spoiled child. Sure I don't have a huge two-story house or own a brand new car or always go shopping every weekend when I know I have every chance to. But I don't need that stuff to make me happy. I'm perfectly content with all I've got right now. As you grow older your mindset changes and you come to a realization as to what's important and matters and what doesn't. For some it does kick it and for others it probably won't ever kick in and they could remain selfish the rest of their needy lives. 

Well that's the end of my rant. Ah... That felt so damn good... :D 

Music is a Cure for the Soul

If I could marry music I totally would in a heartbeat.

I'm not musically inclined when it comes to instruments but I would like to learn how to play the guitar and/or piano more efficiently. I wish I could sing like all those celebrities but I'm not looking for stardom, I sing because it's fun and makes me happy. As it does to everyone who sings to themselves whether it be in the car or in the shower.

Even when I'm feeling so sick and tired and exhausted and just about all those nasty symptoms you get when you're ill, just listening to a soft ballad by my favorite artist can relax me and put me back at ease. I believe music is the best cure to anything, next to chocolate.

I think music can reflect our personality and not to mention our current emotions. Like when you're listening to a sweet love ballad and even if you can't understand the language from the song it's the emotion within the melody and lyrics is what gets through to you. I really do love most if not all the ballads by TVXQ. The passion they put into the song it can literally bring you to tears, in a good way. I really love their song, Love in the Ice. Every time I listen to this song and read along with the lyrics I just feel myself so focused and infused into the song. I swear I can name off so many songs by these guys that I absolutely love because I fall into a dreamlike state mezmorizing it all. PROUD, Traveling (Yeo Hang Gi/여행기/), You're My Melody, Why Did I Fall In Love With You? (Dōshite Kimi o Suki ni Natte Shimattandarō?/どうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう？), Begin, and plenty more that I can't remember but there's tons!

Music to me is better than any chicken soup out there. Just listening to it makes me feel all well and healthy again.

I just love music! More than anything in the world! Well.... Not more than the love of my life that's 1st on the list :) Music and Make Up has to come in 2nd place with a tie as my top favorites.

When life just stresses me out too much I know I can turn to music to sooth my sorrows and just... forget about everything that's been too much of a burden to me.

Love In The Ice

식어버린 작은 손 지극히 떨리는 입술
아무일도 없었다고 견딜 수 있지
누군가를 추억하는 네 모습 두려운 거니
입안에서 맴도는 말 애써 삼키고

외면했었던 뒷모습이 새하얀 눈처럼 조금씩 녹아 내려

어두워진 밤하늘을 떠나지 않는 별처럼
사랑이란 믿음으로 영원히 함께하는 꿈

그 사람 내가 될 수 있다면 다시 한 번 굳어버린 그대 맘을
영원의 따스함으로 감싸 안을거야

현실의 벽에 부딪혀
시려오는 가슴이라 해도

흘러내린 눈물의 끝에는

흐려져가던 빛줄기가
어둠 속을 환하게 비추고
그 시간에 스며들어

숨이 멎을 벅찬 가슴에
뜨거운 체온을 서로 느낄 수 있어

누구라도 안고있는 상처와 깊은 한숨들
끌어안아 줄 수 있는 그 공간을 찾고 있어

나 단 한사람 그대에게만
속삭이는 설레임에 눈이 부실
나의 세상이 되어 곁에 있을테니

세상 끝에 홀로 (My heart~)
남겨졌다고 혼자였다고 (Don’t be afraid~)
아주 오래토록 (Let you know my love~)
내가 지켜 낼 (You know...)
사랑이니까 (Let you know my love~)

어두워진 밤하늘을 변하지 않는 별처럼
사랑이란 믿음으로 영원히 함께하는 꿈

그 사람 내가 될 수 있다면 다시 한 번 굳어버린 그대 맘을
영원의 따스함으로 감싸 안을거야

Your cold hands; your trembling lips,
You bear it as if nothing has happened

Are you afraid of reminiscing somebody?
Forcing yourself to swallow the words you wish to speak
Your disregard is starting to melt away, just like the white snow

Like the stars which don't leave the darkened sky,
Being together forever by the faith of love,
If I could be that person,
I'll embrace your solid heart with eternal warmth

Even if your heart is in pain, after confronting with reality,
At the end of each tears, there's a stream of light,
Which will light up the dark, and sink into time

In the unbearable heart, which has stopped,
We can feel each other with this warmth

The scars and sighs everybody holds,
Everybody is looking for a place to embrace them,
I, just to one person, just to you,
I'll be part of your beautiful world

Alone, at the end of the world; my heart,
You were left, you were alone; don't be afraid,
For a very long time; let you know my love,
I'll keep this; you know
Love secure; let you know my love

Like the stars which don't leave the darkened sky,
Being together forever by the faith of love,
If I could be that person,
I'll embrace your solid heart with eternal warmth

Favorite Quotes

• "Dude, if he really did leave you because of how your body looks, then he wasn't the guy for you" - Tanaya Clark, one of my best friends <3
• "Love me or hate me, both are in my favor…If u love me, I'll always be in your heart…If u hate me, I'll always be in your mind" - Shakespeare
• "Repeating the same mistakes is a sign of anxiety. Calm is the key to change" - Dave Zinczenko
• "It's so funny how we set qualifications for the right person to love, while at the back of our minds we know that the person that we truly love will always be an exception." - Maimai Cha
• “Kindness is a language which the deaf can hear and the blind can see” - Mark Twain
• "I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." - Marilyn Monroe 
• Your single good deed, big or small, can inspire others and cause a ripple effect of kindness that continues to grow as others join in. Start something today — the more people who take action, the larger your ripple will become. 
• “If you want others to be happy, practice compassion. If you want to be happy, practice compassion.”
  —Dalai Lama
• “Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a harder battle.”
  —Plato
• Real eyes realize real lies.